After writing the first blog and reading people's comments I felt that yes I could also do something.I am somebody.I felt I am capable of doing something.But again something happened today which shattered me and proved to me that I am a fool.No matter how hard I try I cant succeed .I am useless just a bag of bones and flesh with no ability.I am a pain in the neck for everybody.Why cant God help me too just as he helps others?Why does'nt he care about me?Why cant he look or even glance at me?Why has he shut his eyes from me?If I have done some mistake please tell me.I cannot tolerate any more.My emotions are now overflowing.They are becoming too much for me to handle.I cant stand it.Please help me God.I will do to whatever you say but please help me.Please give me some happy moments too so that even I can enjoy the beauty of smiling.Please dont deprive me of the joy of smiling.Even I want to enjoy,live life and smile but unfortunatley I think i am not ELIGIBLE for any such moment.But still I long and wait for one, that someday sometime I might be blessed with such a moment though my hopes are dying soon.